You know, the one who is constantly sucking in her stomach when around people? Things can look okay, except, of course, when you have to sit down, and your stomach billows over the top of your pants like a busted can of biscuits.
You always want to get a booth at a restaurant, because it feels like you can hide your body better. Clearly, a chair is way too exposing! And at that restaurant, you're conscious of what you order. You really want a cheeseburger and fries, but you're sure that the waitress would be saying in her head, "oh honey--you should just get a side salad."
But maybe you DO order a side salad. When you place that order, you're convinced the waitress is saying, "who is she kidding with a side salad?" You convince yourself that everyone in the restaurant is picking apart what you are or are not eating just because you're overweight. If you give in and order what you really want to, they're judging you. If you try to "be good" and order a healthy option, they're judging you, figuring that you've probably got a tube of Pringles and a Snickers bar in your purse. And definitely, even if you are super hungry, do NOT finish all of your food. That would be piggish. Always ask for a to-go box.
When you're in public, you're constantly adjusting and pulling at your shirt. You're pulling down at the back of your bra to try your best to minimize the back fat rolls that bulge out. Maybe you even try a 38B, even though you're a 36B...just to see if the band cuts in less.
So, have you been "that girl?" Does any of this sound familiar to you? I didn't get this from a collection of women's insecurities I pulled from somewhere. This is me. I'm "that girl." I've been her for as long as I can remember. Even a little over a year ago, when I was at my smallest, I still did some of these things.
Many of these thoughts are gone but I still have to fight them from time to time.
Am I telling you this so you think I'm a huge flake? Absolutely not. Am I telling this to get attention? Absolutely not. So, WHY am I telling you this?.... I'm sharing this because I want YOU to know that if you can relate to any of this, you don't have to. It can change! You CAN feel more confidence, give less care to what others are thinking of you and order whatever the hell you want at a restaurant (80/20 rule!)! Going from a girl that always thought people were looking at me thinking how fat I was, to a girl that feels pretty okay in her skin is so uplifting. I have good days and bad days, though. I'm still working to get back to where I want to be after my second baby, but I know what it feels like on the other end and I WANT YOU TO ALSO!! And also to know that I GET IT. I can relate. I feel ya!
Are you ready to make the change??
Contact me on my Facebook page, Fit 4 You or Kate Brown. I'm here for ya!! ❤️
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